clipboards. and being excited.

when i traipsed myself down to georgia in august i came with the intention of staying for six months.  i had no idea where to go or what to do when i came home from the field and the Lord led me here to be in community and serve aim and the world race for a season. soon after getting acquainted with gainesville i felt the lord asking me to plant roots here. to find some contentment with being here.  and it was a struggle.  i battled and fought for that contentment.  i chose it on days when it was really the last thing i wanted to do.  and there are days when i still actively have to choose contentment about being in america.

but the more i do it the easier it gets.  and the more i choose thankfulness the more it really does rise up in me.  today, i’m beyond grateful for where i’m at, and what i’m doing.

so, when i agreed to come for a 6-month apprenticeship i  was asked to come on as a part of the marketing team.  which was funny to me because with the exception of my college degree i have zero experience in marketing anything.

but for the last six months i’ve been learning a lot.  and developing some skills.  and learning a lot.  and well, learning a lot.  the more i learn the more i realize how little i actually know.  which is humbling.  but more than that it’s exciting.  it’s a privilege and a blessing to be surrounded by people who are willing to invest in me in so many ways, including professionally.

i’ve spent the last few months working closely with our college-age department.  real life.  it’s been an absolute joy to be awakened to some of my talents and skills and also to rekindle some of the creative passions i’d stifled for so long.  but, that’s another blog for another time.

anyways…all of that really long story to say.  i’m staying in gainesville.  i’m staying with aim.  i’m staying with real life. and i’m continuing to do marketing.oh,

but, i am actually beside myself excited about it.

and also i’ll still be living off of support.  so you can help a sista’ out here.

i’m excited about all of the new changes.  i’m excited about learning more.  i’m excited about being developed.  i’m excited about being challenged.  i’m excited that i get to do something i am passionate about.  i’m excited that it will probably be hard.  but that i’ll grow because of it.  i’m excited about being in one place for awhile.  about learning how to be committed to something.

[it maybe freaks me out a little bit that i just wrote that.  and that i mean it.  because i don’t really know who this new, contented, happy person is.  but i like her.]

and, well.  i’m also excited that i get a new desk.  and a new space.

i know it seems small.  but i am such a person who needs her own space.   i need my space to feel like home.  and i need it to feel like me.

so i made some new things for my new space tonight.  and i love them.  i cannot wait to get them up on my wall above my desk tomorrow.

don’t you just think they are perfect?

getting settled.

two weeks ago i moved into a new apartment with two of my dear friends from the world race.  we’ve had people in and out of this place since we moved in and we are just now finally starting to get settled.  the last three days we’ve been on house arrest due to a freak winter storm in the south.  so we’ve had plenty of time to get acquainted with our new home.

but being settled isn’t something i have much experience with.  i moved a lot growing up and summers were usually spent somewhere other than home.  my four years in college was the most settled time of my life, by far.  but even then, every few months i was in and out of my dorm room and back to my grandparents home i would go.  and then i went on the world race.  i slept in over fifty places over the course of my time abroad.  i literally lived out of a backpack for eleven months.  often times i felt most settled while i was sitting in a mcdonalds or curled up inside my tent.

so, all of that to say.  being back in america and trying to “be settled” is new and different for me.  it’s not something i’ve ever been used to or good at.  my roommates and i just signed a year-long lease which seems like a big commitment to me.  one place for twelve months?  that hasn’t happened since i was in high school.

so there is lots of settling to be done here in gainesville.  i’m settling into a new apartment.  with new roommates.  next month i’ll have to settle into a new position at work.  some days all i want to do is settle back into american life.  and then there are the days when i want to do anything but settle back into american life.  but, like it or not. i’m here.  and i’ve decided that if i have to be in one place i might as well make it the best most peaceful, loving, awesome one place.

so, this weekend i ventured out with k.chad to find some treasures for my new home.  i found the perfect window at an antique store for only $17.  then i bought a $6 map at the bookstore.  cut it to size and staple-gunned it to the back.

i think it turned out perfectly.  it’s really the only thing we have up on the walls so far.  but that’s okay, because right now it’s my favorite thing in the world to look at.

i hope to find more treasures soon.  and i hope that little by little, one window frame at a time, the settledness will start to sink in.  and this new phase of life will feel real.  and that because of the realness i’ll somehow be all the better for being in a season of uncomfortable settledness.